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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Letting him go ...

He's been bugging me for a week or so ...
- when can he have his own space
- how to show his own profile
- how to link to his favourite sites
- how to upload photos

And so today I helped Abang Idin to 'put up' his own place. With him having his own 'space', I could finally correct the mistaken identity. But as I changed back my profile, I felt a sudden tinge of sadness. I could remember the same undescribable feeling when sending him to Primary One, five years ago. He was small size for his age ( he still is!! ) and seeing him disappear into the crowd of the other Primary Ones almost choked me. Tears welled up in my eyes. Ayah just smiled and assured me he was going to be fine.

Yet, I couldn't help but feel emotional about it:
- Like letting him go off on his bicycle without the training wheels for the first time.
- Like encouraging him to pay for his own goods at the cashier tills.
- Like watching him joke around with his friends at school about things only boys of the same age understood.

It's like deja vu - only a different scenario this time - the same feeling overwhelmed me all over again as I helped him choose the template and colours for his text, columns & banners for his very own brand new blog.

Another history in my chapter as a mother unfolded today - managing the emotional challenges of modern day parenting - fronting your little one pleading for independence for cyber space.

Safe for his spelling, punctuation and grammar mistakes here & there, I trust Abang Idin, who is no longer 'my little one', will be a responsible blogger.

Welcome Son, into the world of blogging ( but still under my guidance, no? yesss..... ) Since you are still under the official age for blogging, thus your ramblings remain under my nose for the time being. Nevertheless, I hereby grant your site temporary certificate of fitness ....

Enjoy the masterpiece under continuous construction :
Idin's World: The M.U. Supporter

Love,
Ibu

15 comments:

NURAINA A SAMAD said...

Ibu,

Idin is such a lucky boy! He has a mom who must be his source of inspirationfor him to be the person that he wants to be and can be!

wanshana said...

Dear Ibu,

Sigh...I know what you mean...

I can still remember 'Baby Idin'- and now he's already 'Blogging Idin'!

He is a big boy now...

Soon - he'll be going out there and start dating girls, bringing back your calon menantu, and you planning for his wedding... (Errr...I'd better stop now, no?!!)

sYaNa said...

Aslmkm Ibu :o)

Thank you for visiting my blog :o) You're right, blogging is a very hard habit to break.

I hope that you don't mind that I've linked your blog & Idin's to mine. I enjoy reading both blogs :o)

I'm so happy that you're encouraging Idin to explore (under guidance of course) the blogsphere. I can see you (your writing style) in his writings :o) but he is building his own writing style :o) He's growing up :o)

I used to teach & when blogging first started, I tried to get my students to blog. Not many were interested for various reasons.

It's good that Idin's starting to write at a young age :o) All the best in supervising & I look forward to reading his entries :o)

sYaNa said...

p/s: I can only imagine what your feelings are watching your son growing up & becoming independent, whatmore becoming a very young blogger :o) but if I had kids, I would have felt & done the same thing :o)

Take care, Ibu :o)

Mummy Rizq said...

alamak... macam mana la bila satu hari nanti i have to go the same phase with u. macam mana i wanna let rizq go?? ee.. tak nak ingat lah!

Arif a.k.a Idham said...

:) ibu....i read with warm tingly feeling in my heart. Watching our children grow - picking up new skills - discovering yet another corner of his hidden talents .....what can be more rewarding to an ibu and an ayah than that.

Idin is a fine young man ..and a lucky one too.

Best wishes to idin.

pakcik uncle arif.

MINAH CELOTEH said...

Nak let go of what once our little boy seemed very hard... apa kan lagik anak perempuan *yikes*

kc said...

he's just going to be fine. dont worry so much.

Anonymous said...

I thought I was weird for feeling so sad when my girl starts going to kinddy this year! So its normal lah ya?

Anonymous said...

Sedehkan!

D said...

Way to go, Idin!!! Blog Idin, blog!!

Ibu said...

Kak Ena,
There is this 'words of wisdom' poster in Idin's room, a picture of a boy dressed as a surgeon with a stethoscope hanging around his neck. And the words are:
"BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE"

When he was 8, Idin wanted to become an insect scientist. Uh?

Last year, he wanted to become a rock star! Alamak ....

Last month, his conviction changed to become the first Msian professional footballer who played in EPL. Hmmm......

Obviously I haven't added onto the poster, "Subject to your parents' seal of approval whether it makes sense or not" ;D

Shana,
Calon menantu? Anak siapa? Majistret? Lawyer? Doctor? Atau... Tukang Urut? haaa.. the last one I like... boleh bagi discount for SPA treatment. hahaha...

Ibu said...

Syana,
Terimakasih kembali kerana sudi ke sini. Memang I make it an effort to observe and understand what my boys are keen on and then encourage them to do it a little bit better each day Maybe today it's for their own personal gratification. But who knows tomorrow it could turn into their profession.

So far, Idin is into reading & writing & sports. Hafiz is very much into drawing. Not coloring, but drawing. Ameer - belum nampak lagi. Nanti Ibu pasang teropong.

Mummy Rizq,
At least you got an early warning about this feeling. Ibu dulu takde orang bagitau pun. So, rasa terkedu betul!

Arif a.k.a Idham,
Wahhh!! IC baru ke IC lama ni? Anyway, thanks for the encouragement. Thanks for dropping by, despite your busy schedule.

Minah,
Ha'ah ... tu la kan? Kalau anak perempuan cam mana ek? Hmmm... Esok balik kampung nak kena interview my mom la; how she felt.

KC,
Tak worry... tapi sayu ...

Anon,
Rasa macam cutting off the umbilical cord pun ada jugak ...

D,
I can imagine you in your cheer-leading uniform doing that B-L-O-G alphabets formation. Hehehe...

Idin said...

WOW...A lot of people talking about me. Im popular...hahaha. About the 'be what u want to be' thing is ...ummm...cant describe it. But still, I WANT to be a footballer. Who says I cant.

Minci said...

waaa.. Ibu so sweeet...